In This Moment...

In this moment I am
at war with myself
seeking peace

In this moment I am
on a journey
driting along my path

In this moment I am
wishing for whispers of my truth
arriving on tender wings

In this moment I am
seeking quiet in the ashes
looking for my niche

In this moment I am
nurturing intrigue
singing along with the universe

In this moment I am....

A Message...

What I know...

I have been having a challenging day. I found myself struggling to stay grounded and present. My patience was wavering with my daughter. Something just felt off from the minute I woke up this morning. I was in the "ick." Somehow I stumbled back in it without even knowing it. I tried settling into yoga but found myself getting antsy. I sat in front of the computer. I wandered around the house. Nothing seemed to be a comfort. So I purged.  I purged online and I purged at home. I purged my thoughts. Just...... purged. The act of going through my items and organizing them is intensely calming to me. It is a way for me to create some stillness in my life. Dare I even say that it is a meditative practice for me. When I am done and I have a big huge pile ready for charity I literally release a huge sigh.

I feel lighter.

Little by little I let go of things bogging me down.

I let go of anything I am clinging needlessly to.

I breathe.

In this moment I acknowledge I will need to actively work on creating a stillness practice for myself and PRACTICE it. Today I am allowing myself the freedom to not feel the pull to be there for everyone.

That it is OK to say: "I'm sorry but I can't help you today, I need this day for me."

That my projects can wait until tomorrow.

That I did enough today.

Be Still

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A little of everything

~Today I am guest posting at Picturing Extraordinary. I hope you will take a few minutes to hop over and share your thoughts on a very sensitive topic. A very big thank you to Sarah for giving me this amazing opportunity.

~ Have you been to Kind Over Matter lately? If not, take a peak. I'm loving the new look!

~I'm still sick. Thought I was better then wasn't. Won't go into the drama I have put myself through mentally the past few days. All I will say is that I was not practicing stillness.

~ I am taking little steps towards something new. Not ready to reveal yet but soon....

~Sales on my print for Japan are doing incredible, I am so thankful that I can do this little bit to help. I've already made my first $50 donation to Global Giving.

~I'm very seriously considering another blog move. I've been feeling limited with the Wordpress.com templates and functions and ready to step it up. Also ready for a new blog name and taking suggestions. Right now I cannot decide between hiring someone to design one for me on Blogger or attempting to feel my way through the Wordpress program itself.

~I woke up this morning to find out I had won a spot in the upcoming Wish BIG ecamp. Squeal!!!

~ Go ahead and leap. Stop Waiting!

Sending Love and Support to those in Japan

I've been on the couch all day dealing with the fun that comes with a head cold.

I woke this morning feeling bad and sluggish. Then I logged on to Twitter and my world felt a whole lot smaller.

I allowed myself time to cry and feel the sadness that comes along with hearing news like this.

Then I listened to Liz Lamoreux's guided meditation and sent all those affected love and light.

Then I did a whole lot more couch lounging.

I wanted to find a way to help. Even if just a little.

Tonight I listed a special print in my Etsy shop and will be donating $10 from each sale to the Global Giving Japan Relief Fund.

It really is the least I can do in this moment.

Where I've Been

Last week was an unexpected blogging/social media hiatus for me. I just really did not have much to say. I suppose I needed the quiet and time to prepare for my weekend ahead. Those close to me know that I went to California this weekend for a women's retreat called Create Stillness with Kate Swoboda. I cannot possibly articulate the weekend in a blog post. It would somehow never live up to the experience that took place. It was healing, emotional, powerful and safe. It was all that I craved and a little bit of that extra something I didn't even know I was missing. I had been missing connection. I have been craving community.

I started the weekend with one question in my mind: "What is my passion and how will I know when I find it?" I left with the realization that what I am really seeking is PASSION. I've been seeking rich and meaningful friendships. I have been seeking examples of love and compassion and understanding. I have been seeking a way to live a more authentic life and be comfortable in my own skin. Most of all I have been seeking a way to courageously live the life I was meant to live and do it with the integrity and PASSION that I admire in so many others. I needed this weekend to teach me that the answer I was ultimately seeking is not what I should be doing but instead how I should be doing it.

When you really see something it is hard to unsee that which you have overlooked in the past. That is what I am settling into today. My new eyes are seeing. My heart is bigger and fuller than it was just one week ago. I feel lighter and more in touch. I am ready to start walking my crooked path to my unknown destination. I know that just starting to put one foot in front of the other is enough. I am enough. I have the power to be all that I want to be. I am ready.

PS. The ring? From my friend, Danette at Olive & Hope. My new favorite accessory!

Finding My Rhythm

“The cure for anything is salt water - sweat, tears, or the sea” ~Isak Dinesen

Monday Musings...

I am thankful:

- For the flight attendant who gave me a bottle of water for my drive on Friday even though there was no beverage service.

- For Kate. For seeing me. For seeing me so intently that I could almost physically feel her embracing my presence from across the room.

- For water and what it does to my spirit. Everything from the hot bath on Friday night to the roar of the ocean and cleansing rain on Sunday.

- For new friends. My new people. From the friends on the East and to the West and the ones from the North.

- For the coffee shop in Pacific Grove and the new memories that have been seeded there.

- For the tears that came and the weeks past where I have felt them coming yet was unable to embrace the emotion and let it be. The wave that finally came over me was powerful, vulnerable, raw and so very real.

- For the shift that I allowed to happen inside of me and the willingness to let it be OK to grow just now. To take new steps this very moment towards my purpose.

- For music and the perfectly timed playlist that filled the radio waves on my drive yesterday.

- For the mother on the airplane traveling alone with her two young children. One heaving into the air-sick bag and the other not old enough to understand. This reminded me to be gentle with my own daughter.

-For the magical moment the sun filled the sky on the flight home with a sendoff only California could offer. Whispering reminders of things to come.