Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Where I've Been


Last week was an unexpected blogging/social media hiatus for me. I just really did not have much to say. I suppose I needed the quiet and time to prepare for my weekend ahead. Those close to me know that I went to California this weekend for a women's retreat called Create Stillness with Kate Swoboda. I cannot possibly articulate the weekend in a blog post. It would somehow never live up to the experience that took place. It was healing, emotional, powerful and safe. It was all that I craved and a little bit of that extra something I didn't even know I was missing. I had been missing connection. I have been craving community.

I started the weekend with one question in my mind: "What is my passion and how will I know when I find it?" I left with the realization that what I am really seeking is PASSION. I've been seeking rich and meaningful friendships. I have been seeking examples of love and compassion and understanding. I have been seeking a way to live a more authentic life and be comfortable in my own skin. Most of all I have been seeking a way to courageously live the life I was meant to live and do it with the integrity and PASSION that I admire in so many others. I needed this weekend to teach me that the answer I was ultimately seeking is not what I should be doing but instead how I should be doing it.

When you really see something it is hard to unsee that which you have overlooked in the past. That is what I am settling into today. My new eyes are seeing. My heart is bigger and fuller than it was just one week ago. I feel lighter and more in touch. I am ready to start walking my crooked path to my unknown destination. I know that just starting to put one foot in front of the other is enough. I am enough. I have the power to be all that I want to be. I am ready.

PS. The ring? From my friend, Danette at Olive & Hope. My new favorite accessory!

15 comments:

  1. It sounds like you had a pretty amazing weekend with many lessons brought home and a fuller heart. That is a wonderful place to be at in your life!

    Thanks for sharing a bit of the journey with us :)

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  2. Wow. I would be envious of your weekend if I didn't have The Tribe coming in June. I, too, have been seeking something -- passion, meaning, purpose -- for some time now. Your weekend is inspiration to me that "it" is out there to discover - the what, the who, the where or the how. Thanks for sharing with us!

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  3. It was *so* wonderful to meet you this weekend, Celina. Your photographs are so beautiful!

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  4. Wow, that retreat sounds fantastic. I'm so pleased for you that you've had this great realization for yourself. Pacific Grove is where Camp Shuttersisters will be in the fall. It looks like a beautiful place.

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  5. love your words here. there is so much power in them. powerful, beautiful, you. xo

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  6. I'm with Emily. CRAVING community and sisterhood. Can't wait to be with you in person. xoxo

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  7. Me too, I need the same things. It's been a difficult to find locally, though. Still, I have hope.

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  8. Was really great spending the weekend with you! xo

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  9. This is my very first time on your blog (came across a comment you made on KOM). I can totally relate to your feelings. I'm adjusting the lends of my inner camera to full focus :)

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  10. Great post celina...honest and well said!

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  11. i really felt your passion celina, and i am so happy to have met you!! xo

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  12. [...] I know is that this weekend was profoundly touching for me. I so enormously appreciated meeting each of the participants. (P.S. There’s one person who is not linked here because I [...]

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  13. Dear Celina,

    You are enough! You are more than enough. I feel so incredibly lucky to have shared this magical weekend with you and look forward to seeing you blossom!
    xoxo
    Valerie

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  14. Much, MUCH love to you all, thank you!

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  15. oh wow, i love this and love you figured that piece out. love love love ~ thank youf or opening my eyes to it.

    xo

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