Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Where I've Been
Last week was an unexpected blogging/social media hiatus for me. I just really did not have much to say. I suppose I needed the quiet and time to prepare for my weekend ahead. Those close to me know that I went to California this weekend for a women's retreat called Create Stillness with Kate Swoboda. I cannot possibly articulate the weekend in a blog post. It would somehow never live up to the experience that took place. It was healing, emotional, powerful and safe. It was all that I craved and a little bit of that extra something I didn't even know I was missing. I had been missing connection. I have been craving community.
I started the weekend with one question in my mind: "What is my passion and how will I know when I find it?" I left with the realization that what I am really seeking is PASSION. I've been seeking rich and meaningful friendships. I have been seeking examples of love and compassion and understanding. I have been seeking a way to live a more authentic life and be comfortable in my own skin. Most of all I have been seeking a way to courageously live the life I was meant to live and do it with the integrity and PASSION that I admire in so many others. I needed this weekend to teach me that the answer I was ultimately seeking is not what I should be doing but instead how I should be doing it.
When you really see something it is hard to unsee that which you have overlooked in the past. That is what I am settling into today. My new eyes are seeing. My heart is bigger and fuller than it was just one week ago. I feel lighter and more in touch. I am ready to start walking my crooked path to my unknown destination. I know that just starting to put one foot in front of the other is enough. I am enough. I have the power to be all that I want to be. I am ready.
PS. The ring? From my friend, Danette at Olive & Hope. My new favorite accessory!