Friday, February 17, 2012

Trusting the process

Canvas 1 layer 5 
I cannot even began to articulate how much I am enjoying Flora's Bloom True intuitive painting class. It is a different kind of painting. You must allow yourself the space to flow with your body and not against it. To make marks in the kind of fashion that a 4 year old might create. The biggest lesson so far, though, is to trust. 

I'm trusting the ugly phase on one of my canvases and appreciating that my painting can be covered again and again if needed. Well not so much covered but transformed. Every brush stroke is a small piece to the puzzle. Every layer a story. A big practice of letting go for me today was to cover the image above with layers of black and white strokes. I was really becoming quite attached to the canvas and how it was progressing and mourned a little about what I was covering up transforming. 

That is about the moment when it hit me there was a life lesson here. I was learning to trust the process and what Flora was sharing. It isn't about holding on. It is about letting go. One transformation at a time. Sometimes we get so incredibly hung up on a piece of our lives that looks so good on the outside. Unable to transform it even if...yes even if... in the end it will turn out more beautiful than we ever expected. That is where I was sitting with this painting this morning. Looking at the circle area I so adored and allowing myself to transform it into something else. Sometimes we transform with a little black and sometimes we do it with a little white. Either way it's a tiny piece to a very big puzzle. 

5 comments:

  1. So true Celina
    it is just like us
    the ebb and flow
    it helps when we are willing to move with the winds
    this painting is gorgeous...
    the the lesson is exquisite!


    love andl ight

    ps thanks for coming by for a visit!

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  2. Celina--yes! And I love exchanging "covering up" for "transformation" because it changes something that seems negative into something positive and consciously puts all the power in our sweet little hands. It's ALL good. :-) The black/white layer had me a bit paralyzed initially, and then I just sort of closed my eyes and/or glanced sideways as I started applying the paint. Eventually, I was thoroughly having fun and didn't have to avert my eyes--lol. I can't wait to do the translucent colors today!

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  3. I am so happy that you are loving Flora's class. It makes me even more excited to take it live in April. I would have a hard time with this "transformation" process--I think I would have grown VERY attached to what you had created and show here. It is beautiful. But I'm even more excited to see how this transforms. xoxo

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  4. now this sounds like a course i need to take. a whole new way to look at the creation process. the energy in this is really really beautiful.

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  5. You are awesome! The writting and painting expression is all you. Love MOM

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