Trusting the process

 

I cannot even began to articulate how much I am enjoying Flora's Bloom True intuitive painting class. It is a different kind of painting. You must allow yourself the space to flow with your body and not against it. To make marks in the kind of fashion that a 4 year old might create. The biggest lesson so far, though, is to trust. 

I'm trusting the ugly phase on one of my canvases and appreciating that my painting can be covered again and again if needed. Well not so much covered but transformed. Every brush stroke is a small piece to the puzzle. Every layer a story. A big practice of letting go for me today was to cover the image above with layers of black and white strokes. I was really becoming quite attached to the canvas and how it was progressing and mourned a little about what I was covering up transforming. 

That is about the moment when it hit me there was a life lesson here. I was learning to trust the process and what Flora was sharing. It isn't about holding on. It is about letting go. One transformation at a time. Sometimes we get so incredibly hung up on a piece of our lives that looks so good on the outside. Unable to transform it even if...yes even if... in the end it will turn out more beautiful than we ever expected. That is where I was sitting with this painting this morning. Looking at the circle area I so adored and allowing myself to transform it into something else. Sometimes we transform with a little black and sometimes we do it with a little white. Either way it's a tiny piece to a very big puzzle.