Tuesday, January 18, 2011
I will always wander
I am so many things that anymore I find it difficult to categorize myself into profile subject lines. The word photographer no longer fits as comfortably as it once did and I realized why. I love to learn. I love the challenge of trying something new. The excitement and the shininess of it all. But then I learn as much as I feel I need to and the shininess wears off. What I need is purpose, projects and structure. If I don't have those things my photography falls into being an afterthought. I am allowing that to be okay. I am allowing myself the freedom to wander and to explore until I find that one thing that makes me so obsessively passionate that I cannot do anything else. Or maybe I am meant to be passionately obsessed with learning new arts. Maybe that is my path. Someday the answer will come.
As anyone who reads this regularly will know I have been doing my fair share of exploring other mediums lately. With this I am happy that I can cross yet another item off my Life List. I have always wanted to start painting again. I dabbled in it through High School art but that was as far as I went with it. I simply added: "start painting" to my life list. Not because I want to learn anything more with it, but simply because I just want to DO it. So last week I went to the store and picked up a small collection of acrylic paints and got to work on a chip board journal. I'm not worrying about form or vision or even technique. I'm just letting the paint flow and DOING it.