I am so many things that anymore I find it difficult to categorize myself into profile subject lines. The word photographer no longer fits as comfortably as it once did and I realized why. I love to learn. I love the challenge of trying something new. The excitement and the shininess of it all. But then I learn as much as I feel I need to and the shininess wears off. What I need is purpose, projects and structure. If I don't have those things my photography falls into being an afterthought. I am allowing that to be okay. I am allowing myself the freedom to wander and to explore until I find that one thing that makes me so obsessively passionate that I cannot do anything else. Or maybe I am meant to be passionately obsessed with learning new arts. Maybe that is my path. Someday the answer will come.
As anyone who reads this regularly will know I have been doing my fair share of exploring other mediums lately. With this I am happy that I can cross yet another item off my Life List. I have always wanted to start painting again. I dabbled in it through High School art but that was as far as I went with it. I simply added: "start painting" to my life list. Not because I want to learn anything more with it, but simply because I just want to DO it. So last week I went to the store and picked up a small collection of acrylic paints and got to work on a chip board journal. I'm not worrying about form or vision or even technique. I'm just letting the paint flow and DOING it.
I really admire your attitude on making your life your own. You are brave and that really inspires others to do the same. You seem to enjoy just being and that is such a wonderful quality!
ReplyDeleteDoing as opposed to thinking about doing really does make all the difference. It's taken me years to learn this. Have fun with your painting. :) I enjoy water-based painting much more than oils myself...I don't like toxic chemical odors after all. When I first started with oils I loved the smell of turpentine but grew out of it-maybe it was some sort of subconscious self-care type of reaction.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the painting Celina, be sure to post some of your work for us to see!
ReplyDeleteI love this. Why should you have to stick yourself in a box and only be that one thing? We are always changing.
ReplyDeleteI admire you for being able to do this -- to just be or do -- without having to be "being something" or "doing something." I think we usually sort of stumble into our purpose, but for those of us who want a PURPOSE (all caps), that can be disconcerting. So happy that you are allowing yourself these steps in your journey.
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