Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Monday I was the guest poster on Relish12. My prompt was more of a challenge than a writing assignment and it went a little something like this:
Carve some time out for yourself this week. Hire a sitter, enlist your spouse or family for help. Reach out. An hour or the whole afternoon, it’s your choice. When planning your time think about what your soul needs most. Is it comfort? Lock yourself in the bathroom for a bubble bath. Is it release? Take a drive to a quiet spot and scream at your steering wheel. Whatever it is you are most needing your highest self already knows, so take this time to do it. Afterwards, write about what creating that space meant for you. What emotions bubbled up? Where did your thoughts drift? Could you commit do doing this for you more often?
Of course when I wrote this my husband wasn't out of town and it wasn't 2 weeks before the Holiday's and just days before I leave for New York City. I was starting to wonder what exactly I was thinking. Then I just made sure it happened anyway. I've been withdrawn from others lately. I was tense. So much so it manifested itself directly in my shoulders to the point where I could not turn my head yesterday.
Today I was lucky enough to have an entire day per-scheduled and carved out for myself. Hair appointment first then followed by a blissful 1 hour massage. After that I topped it off with much needed chiropractic adjustment. I feel 100% better.
Lying on that massage table I drifted off into what feel like a waking dream state. No longer aware of my body or my surroundings I just let myself drift. The message that popped up was "let go..." So I did. I let go of worry and fear about my trip. I let go of the non loving way I have been treating my body lately. I let go of the tension that was rolling off of me. I allowed myself the gift of just being there. I physically could feel my shoulders moving away from my ears after I walked out today. What a difference a release can make. When I took a deep breath outside and noticed the sun was shining the world looked a hell of a lot different than it did when I woke up this morning.
It's all about perspective isn't it?